I went to my Vons, for the millionth time to order a sandwich, I am very particular about what and how I like my sandwiches, food in general.
As I stood there guiding the sandwich lady how and what I wanted on my sandwich, she looked up at me and said, “You make me nervous!” in that moment I realized I was standing there with my arms crossed, watching her, but my mind was not really present. Her words shook me in that moment I realize my demeanor. I immediately, said I was sorry and that it had nothing to do with her, which it didn’t. She followed up by saying she always felt that way about me. I looked at her and honestly couldn’t say I had ever seen her before, but she knew me.
Before she was done with making my sandwich, she looked up at me again, apologizing about her comment. I a bit of shame for making someone feel that way and told her so. I was the one to apologize, I appreciated her calling my attention to how others might see me.
I really wanted to give her my 2 cents worth about not making assumptions, or taking things personally. I didn’t because I knew this was for me, to adjust my attitude and be friendlier and smile.
My parents came to my mind as well, as this is how they are and obviously a behavior I learned. I do not ever mean to be a bitch or scare people, I am in my head, with my own thoughts, I do see how I can and should be more open and friendly. I am a work in progress.
Thankful, Grateful and Blessed!