While I am sure I have not been asked by God to go through something more than anyone else in life, I think/feel he has asked me to do it mostly alone.
I wonder if I was unable to be alone in another lifetime, or if I had people who wanted and needed to be with me, and I rejected them…?
I never thought I would be alone, especially this long, it has been years since I have been in a relationship, over a decade since I’ve been married, never had children, and my dogs have crossed over the rainbow.
I have not been able or willing to stay in any relationship just to have someone, I thought I would prefer to be alone, I guess this is an example of “be careful what you wish for….” I never wanted to be all alone and not this long. I do want/need to share my life with my person, not just with friends, and family when they have time for me, or when its expected, but a full time partner.
I still hold out great hope and faith that I will soon be drawn to my soul mate. I feel I will know better how to appreciate him when he does finally arrive.
Until then, I will continue to do my best.
Thankful, Grateful & Blessed!