You have always called the shots when it comes to our relationship, never minding what my needs have been.
Now I call the shots for Rebeca!
I will not be part of any conversation that has to do with bashing my father. I feel sorry for you and the anger and hatred you carry, which has and is clearly manifesting in your health or lack of. Get over it!
32 years have gone by since you filed for divorce, I would think the hurt would have subsided, but hearing you speak it sounds as it was in the present time.
Yes, he hurt you, yes it was a negative experience in many ways, but healing and forgiving is for you, not him.
You have been punishing me my whole life for loving my father, why? How dare you punish your child for loving their parent. It is my right as a human being to love whomever I chose.
Thankful, Grateful & Blessed!