Today is my Mothers birthday. I want to say “Happy 70th Mom!” yet I struggle with my inner turmoil of needing to move on and leaving you behind, while wanting to be a good person and daughter by allowing you to stay in my life.

The struggle is real but one I am not alone in. Mothers and daughters have struggled as long as time. I am not unique which makes me sad, because it is painful, almost a crushing feeling of not connecting to the one person who is suppose to be a shoe in.

I’ve seen my friends both the ones whom their mothers are their best friends and those who also struggle. Through them I saw the mutual love and respect, I knew I was missing, and for those who also struggled, I know the pain.

Nevertheless, I wish you a happy, healthy and peaceful birthday!

Thankful, Grateful & Blessed!