At work one fateful day, our CTO (Chief Transformation Officer) a woman with a PhD, non the less, informed me that I would be attending a two hour ongoing weekly meeting, I would be taking notes/minutes to be posted on our business portal for everyone to read and see. I was not only hesitant but horrified, petrified and resistant to say the least.
In high school, I scored below average for comprehensive reading. Which means, I wasn’t really understanding what I was reading.
It surprises me now, how many red flags there were. My family at the time was in turmoil and I went under radar, I could have been diagnosed with the ADD then, my life would most likely be very different today. I was finally diagnosed with at age 49, only because of this new responsibility at work, that pushed me to want answers.
The first couple of meetings I attended, I was blocked mentally and struggled through the first hour meeting, later writing the notes was stressful to say the least, I felt like I was confirming how inept I am. I knew I couldn’t hide it anymore, this was a challenge that would bring light to my predicament, I could not hide anymore, it became obvious that something needed to be addressed.
I took the first step, I called a doctor and started the ball rolling, there is not ignoring it anymore, or believing I could get away with hiding it.