Valentine’s Day 2021. What can I say about V-Day 2021. After spending the last 12 months in an abusive relationship, I still didn’t want to spend another V-Day alone. I took him back for the millionth time, and decided I would make the best it, thinking he would also be grateful for the time together and make the best of it, but I was wrong.
My now ex, could not help himself, or better said he could not stop himself from being the same abusive person, he has shown me to be. His behavior has not seized in anyway but instead it has continued and become more frequent, between telling me what a terrible person I am, criticizing everything about me, the insentient put downs and aggressive way of grabbing me, trying to control my movement.
All I recite in my head is “believe people when they tell you who they are”, why has this been so difficult for me? Or has it? The truth is that I do believe it, I always have, my problem, is the lack of action, my lack of self love, and making myself my priority!
Not any more, I am my #1 priority, I will NOT allow anyone, no matter who they are to “tell” me who I am, what I think, and what others think of me. Keeping in mind what others think of me, is none of my business, it is a reflection of themselves.
It was snowing in Seattle, and the thought of driving in it, frightened me, but I knew I had to flee, I had to be free of the abuse, no matter the consequences, I prayed that God and my angels would keep me safe, they came through as they always do, I drove home without any issues and spent the day with my favorite person, MYSELF! Happy Valentine’s Day to me.
Thankful, Grateful & Blessed!