Panini maker

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In her book “The Wisdom of Sundays” Oprah talks about her Panini maker,  and how this simple electronic grill which makes gourmet sandwiches, gives her great pleasure.

I had wanted one for a while, but didn’t want to buy a cheap one, since I didn’t think it would work well, but also didn’t want to fork over the $70 it costs to buy the “Breville” one I had my eye on.

Anyone who knows me, knows I LOVE sandwiches, so buying an expensive panini maker, would probably not be a waste of money. I still couldn’t bring myself to buy one but never stopped wanting for one.

One day, I decided to visit my local “Goodwill” since it is only two blocks away from where I live in Seattle. I got a text that everything was half off, so I thought why not?

I also love things for the kitchen and cooking. As I was looking at what they had I spotted a couple of paninin makers, I had always avoided the electronic area, because I thought they were defective or not working, but this day a Breville panini maker caught my eye. I could hardly believe it, to be honest I could not believe it.


I took it up to the register still hesitating to purchase it, when I asked the employee if they had a return policy on this kind of item. Turns out you can return it within a week if it does not work. So I bit the bullet and paid $5!!! and took it home.

Best purchase ever! I have used this panini maker every weekend since I brought it home. I LOVE IT!!!!!

Funny how something so simple can make you so happy, I guess I also have this in common with lady O!

Thankful. Grateful & Blessed! 


Every Mercury Retrograde in 2020, Plus 6 Other *Major* Astrological Events Coming Your Way By ALISE MORALES

2020 is just around the corner, and the heavens have some major changes in store for us earth dwellers. Astrologically, 2020 is going to be a year of major growth, change and reflection. It’s going to be a great year for career successes and wealth building, but a more difficult year surrounding relationships, particularly intimate relationships, which might be strained by the rapid pace of changes taking place in both partners’ lives. 2020 will also begin in a new Age of Aquarius, wrapping up the heavy earth energy of the past 20 years and ushering in a new rule dominated by the element air.

In order to plan for all the amazing changes and challenges the year will bring, here are some astrological events to keep in mind, from all three Mercury retrogrades in 2020 to the Jupiter and Saturn conjunction in December.

Mercury retrograde in 2020

Let’s get this one out of the way first. Good old Mercury will go into retrograde three times next year:

1. February 17 to March 10
2. June 18 to July 12
3. October 14 to November 3

This will bring the usual issues with technology and communication, so it will be imperative to pay extra attention to your relationships during this time as they may already be strained by the other changes 2020 will bring.

Other retrogrades to watch in 2020

In addition to Mercury, Venus will go into retrograde from May 13 to June 25, and Pluto will be in retrograde from April 24 to October 4. Venus in retrograde could bring up a lot of problems for couples, leaving them feeling less able to express their love for each other and causing them to place blame where it is not due. During Pluto’s retrograde, sudden rapid changes could lead to a period of withdrawal, even for the most social signs. This could be marked by the sudden loss of a relationship, which will be painful, but ultimately the spiritual growth that loss brings will help you overcome.

Lunar eclipses in 2020

There will be four lunar eclipses:

1. January 10
2. June 5
3. July 5
4. November 30

These eclipses serve as periods of self-reflection, asking us to reevaluate our life as it stands. In essence, they are astrological checkpoints and will be particularly powerful in 2020, when major growth and changes can be expected across the board.

Jupiter in Capricorn in 2020

This year, Jupiter moves into Capricorn, ushering in a time of increased diligence, discipline and responsibility. Jupiter’s influence will be felt particularly when creating and reevaluating long-term goals, as it helps you open your mind to future possibilities with confidence and ambition.

Jupiter and Saturn conjunction 2020

One of the most influential astrological events of 2020 will take place on December 21, when Jupiter and Saturn conjoin for the first time in 20 years. This will be a time when all the hard work you put in and the difficulties you faced over the course of the year help to create a time of renewed fertility and growth. It will be a time of leaving behind the things that have not served you over the course of this year, which means you can focus on new adventures and opportunities. Because Jupiter and Saturn will be journeying to this conjunction over the course of the year, 2020 will be imbued with a sense of high anticipation and excitement as we all wait for the new Age of Aquarius to begin.

Childhood disrupted by Donna J. Nakazawa

Childhood Disrupted: How Your Biography Becomes Your Biology, and How You Can Heal
Book by Donna Jackson Nakazawa
Below is a paragraph from the conclusion of this book, that resonated with me, and gave me a kind of pat on the back, and a thumbs up. 

“Childhood adversity can tear you down but it can also be your single greatest impetus growth. It takes tremendous courage and inner strength to transform the trauma of childhood adversity into a journey toward post-traumatic growth. But when you do reorient yourself, you open to the possibility of healing.”

It is nice to be acknowledge for the difficulty and resilience it takes to endure such changes, that come with a price most aren’t willing to pay.

Thankful, Grateful & Blessed! 

“Self-awareness” A Playful Way, And Your Life Will Automatically Improve By Dina Marais


The result of a higher vibration is expanding your awareness – when you are open and expanding, you are seeing things you were blind to before. You then notice abundance and beauty and give thanks for that and your energy field attracts more experiences to make you feel that way. But then, just as you are feeling fabulous, just as you are enjoying this awesome feeling, a thought out of nowhere pops into your mind, reminding you of a bill that you haven’t paid yet, or your bank account.

The trick is to NOT be sucked into a low vibration here, and not to let your senses determine your thinking. Here, self-awareness is so valuable, because when this happens you know that it is your old paradigm that is trying to pull you back into your comfort zone. Notice I say trying because you have a choice here to give your power away to your old paradigm of fear and lack, or to claim your power back and use your free will to choose thoughts of love and abundance that empower and feed your new paradigm and Truth!

Easier said than done, you may say. And yes, I agree with you, because your old paradigm is fighting for its life and your intention is for it to die and your new paradigm to take over. So how can you stay motivated if it is so difficult?

In my experience, it is to make it into a game. Playfulness is key because then your energetic vibration tends to stay at a higher frequency. We all know the practice to surround yourself with people that you aspire to. It is a fact that you are the average of the 5 people you spend the most time with. Often, it is not possible to surround yourself with the people that you aspire to be. You may be an entrepreneur working from home and you are either alone or surrounded by family who does not represent that group of people you are striving to become.


Are you one of those people who broadcasts your sign as a humble brag of sorts? Like, “I’m a Libra, which I want you to interpret as meaning I’m super charismatic and the best at relationships.” I don’t do this because I’m an Aries and we’re known for being full of ourselves so it’s a little too on the nose, but if you are prone to this behavior, I’m sure you’re not alone. You might think twice about divulging your sign unless solicited, however, when you consider that for every positive aspect of your sign exist shadow-side characteristics.

In any case, what this means is that any good characteristic of your sign can manifest in ways that are not-so-good. For example, if you are an independent Aries, you can also be selfish, intuitive astrologer and healer Rachel Lang points out. So, which negative traits have you been unwittingly advertising all these years?

Discover the shadow side of your star sign


They can be fiercely independent and confident. The shadow side is they can seem selfish. They can also be competitive, and this can lead to challenges in relationships.


Taurus is a stable and reliable. They tend to appreciate financial security and make wise decisions to ensure it. The shadow side is they can be resistant to change once they have a sense of security.


Gemini is curious and enjoys learning new things. They can strike up a conversation with almost anyone. At the same time, they may have a difficult time sticking to one thing and staying committed to what they start. Their gift of gab can make them prone to gossip, too. They love to tell a good story!


Cancer has a reputation for being moody, and this could be considered a shadow side. But what drives Cancer’s occasional mood swings is a lack of self-care. Cancer is the nurturer of the Zodiac, and they tend to take care of those they love. When they neglect themselves, though, Cancer can feel depleted or even resentful.


Leo is the sign of creative expression. If they don’t use their creative juices productively, though, they could become wrapped up in others’ drama… or create their own. Their best line of defense against this shadow side is to find healthy ways to express themselves, through writing, performing, leading a team, sports, etc.


Virgo has the gift of discernment. They are ruled by Mercury, the planet of details, and because of this, they have a keen ability to spot imperfections. The shadow side of this is a tendency toward perfectionism. When their perfectionism kicks in, they can worry about the details and feel stuck with fear, doubt, or anxiety.


Libra is the relationship sign, and because of this, they tend to be focused on others, especially in making sure others are at peace and happy. This tendency, when out of balance, can lead to people-pleasing. The way Libra expresses this tendency is by having a difficulty saying no for fear of disappointing others. They could also lose a sense of what they want because they’re usually so keyed into others’ desires. Because they can see all sides of a situation, they also can be indecisive.


Scorpio is careful when it comes to relationships. You have to earn their trust. When they love, they love whole-heartedly, and this is why it can take time for them to wholly commit to a relationship. When their trust is betrayed in any way, they can hold onto that hurt. Their shadow side may want revenge, or at least poetic justice. They can have a tendency to hold back emotions for fear of showing their vulnerable, soft sides. I say this, but Scorpios are some of the most loyal, committed, deep, and generous people I know. So, even when they are playing in their shadows, you can still sense their soft side.


Sagittarius is known for telling the truth. They tend to have a very black and white definition of truth, and they don’t often live in the gray. When they decide something is true, they stand by that belief with fervor. Sometimes, though, they can take this to an extreme and speak the truth too bluntly. They may inadvertently offend others as a result.


Capricorn needs to have a goal in mind for everything they do. They are ambitious and don’t like to waste effort on anything that isn’t going to last long term, whether it’s a career path, relationship, or personal goal. They don’t easily give up. The shadow side of this Capricorn is they can be too concerned with the future that they don’t go with the flow. They can have an inner control freak.


Aquarius is an intellectual sign. They have active, creative, and inventive minds, and they often privilege their minds over their emotions. This can lead to the shadow side of Aquarius, which is detachment from emotions, especially in times of stress. Aquarius has a strong, independent spirit. They need plenty of alone time and space within relationships.


Pisces can have one foot in the practical world and one foot in the spiritual. They can be imaginative and creative, but their shadow side can be grounding that creative energy into a tangible form. They may become distracted, especially by other people. They can be generous to a fault, too.

10 Ways To Put Tears And Negativity Behind You In The New Decade By Najma Khorrami

Was 2019 a difficult year for you? Did you have your share of heartache and difficulty you’d like to leave behind? If you’re looking for a top-notch, extremely rewarding new vibe for 2020 and the rest of decade, perhaps you’ll consider these 10 ways to get started:

1. Wear your heart on your sleeve.

According to the Yale Center for Emotional Intelligence, “grateful people are rated by others as more helpful, outgoing, optimistic and trustworthy.” In short, wearing your heart on your sleeve by expressing appreciation can help you build satisfying relationships and make bad memories feel remote and distant this new year.

2. Feel secure in your relationship style.

In their book Attached: The New Science of Adult Attachment and How It Can Help You Find – And Keep – Love, Dr. Amir Levine and Rachel Heller describe attachment styles in relationships, including secure, anxious and avoidant-types. Those with secure attachment expect love and care from others, often engaging in effective communication with spouses and other connections. Start the New Year feeling secure in your relationship style by learning to improve your communication skills.

3. Empower others (but first start with yourself).

When we are at our strongest, we find the courage to empower, listen, and care for others. Melinda Gates writes in her latest book, The Moment of Lift, that “if I had not been surrounded by people who lifted me up, I might have taken her [a counselor’s] advice and sold myself short…” Gates goes on to say, “That wasn’t my power; it was the power of the people who had shown me my gifts and wanted me to flourish…” Gates concludes by claiming, “This is what happens when you offer girls love, not hate…they gain their voice.”

If we are at our strongest, or on the path to becoming so, then we must find ways to see the best in others and tell them so.

4. Stay grounded, yet confident.

Did you have difficulty with self-confidence or self-esteem in 2019? Don’t worry, everyone has sailed on that boat with you. Your response, in turn, defines you. Not the feeling. When managing difficult internal emotions, try to discover your inner voice telling you that this it is temporary. Then you can move onward. Do the things you love to do, find your purpose, and soon your inner confidence will surge.

5. Move forward past rejection.

We’ve all had our share of rejection. However, that doesn’t mean that you haven’t shared in the success. Holding onto optimism and hope is key to moving beyond the rejection. This New Year, keep the hope and the optimism alive and well. You deserve it for yourself to do that.

6. Stay lit with love.

“Love is the most powerful and underused force for change in the world,” writes Melinda Gates in her book, The Moment of Lift. Be a pioneer of love and kindness this New Year. Stay lit with love.

7. In times of sadness and setback, let yourself feel, even if you have to cry or be angry. Then gather yourself, and plan onward.

Part of your emotional compass might tell you it’s wrong to cry or wrestle with anger or frustration. It’s all part of the package, though, despite the feeling that you want it to be completely gone. It’s okay to have down moments. Remember to let yourself feel in times of sadness and setback. Soon, collect yourself, regain your composure, and forge ambitiously ahead.

8. Fully celebrate success.

When you reach success, don’t be shy to celebrate. These moments make the journey ever so joyful.

9. Put your fate and faith into a higher source.

If 2019 has been especially difficult, remember that your journey has good times ahead. Leave your fate and faith in the hands of a higher source, and try to make light of your difficulties by focusing and appreciating the positive. Try expressing your appreciation on apps like Gratitude Circle.

10. Consider your slate clean. That is in terms of plans. If you need to, make a fresh start towards goals you’ve set for yourself.

Whether it is tackling climate change, reaching gender equality in schools and at work, or ending global hunger and poverty, all our goals however small or large matter, in terms of improving the status quo. Try and see the New Year — and decade — as a fresh start towards achieving your most important goals.

Now that you’ve gotten some ways to put tears and negativity behind you, make your first steps!! Remember, “A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.”

8 Unlikely People That Praised The Bhagavad Gita By Matt Caron

The Bhagavad Gita: A Book for the Ages

It’s no surprise that the wisdom of the Bhagavad Gita has inspired countless people throughout history; after all, it has been the most popular story in India for countless generations.

But what’s really interesting is seeing the people it touches…because sometimes it can affect others in ways you never even thought possible.

Albert Einstein

“When I read the Bhagavad-Gita and reflect about how God created this universe everything else seems so superfluous.”

Henry David Thoreau

“In the morning I bathe my intellect in the stupendous and cosmogonal philosophy of the Bhagavad-gita, in comparison with which our modern world and its literature seem puny and trivial.”

Herman Hesse

“The marvel of the Bhagavad-Gita is its truly beautiful revelation of life’s wisdom which enables philosophy to blossom into religion.”

Dr. Albert Schweitzer

“The Bhagavad-Gita has a profound influence on the spirit of mankind by its devotion to God which is manifested by actions.”

Carl Jung

“The idea that man is like unto an inverted tree seems to have been current in bygone ages. The link with Vedic conceptions is provided by Plato in his Timaeus in which it states…” behold we are not an earthly but a heavenly plant.” This correlation can be discerned by what Krishna expresses in chapter 15 of Bhagavad-Gita.”

Aldous Huxley

“The Bhagavad-Gita is the most systematic statement of spiritual evolution of endowing value to mankind. It is one of the most clear and comprehensive summaries of perennial philosophy ever revealed; hence its enduring value is subject not only to India but to all of humanity.”

Ralph Waldo Emerson

“I owed a magnificent day to the Bhagavad-gita. It was the first of books; it was as if an empire spoke to us, nothing small or unworthy, but large, serene, consistent, the voice of an old intelligence which in another age and climate had pondered and thus disposed of the same questions which exercise us.”

Rudolph Steiner

“In order to approach a creation as sublime as the Bhagavad-Gita with full understanding, it is necessary to attune our soul to it.”

My astrological chart has my moon in Gemini, and this is what it means!

Moon in Gemini

Moon in GeminiYour Moon Sign describes your instinctive or emotional energies, your innate reactions, and the things you need to feel comfortable or secure. It can reveal your emotional, genetic and intuitive makeup.

Whilst your Sun Sign describes qualities you are learning to develop and become, the Moon in Gemini describes who you already are.


Born with the Moon in Gemini, you are likely to be a curious individual, with an active, versatile mind. Gemini is an Air sign, governing communication, the exchange of information or ideas, and the protocols with which social organization occurs.


Accordingly, you may find that you have an innate need to know as much as possible about the world around you, and may have a talent for numbers, speech or the written word.


Gemini is also a Mutable sign, implying the need for variety and change. You are likely to find that you are easily engaged in new things, seek stimulation and may become easily bored. You are likely to be very adaptable, and love anything new. You may be an instinctive multi-tasker, and may habitually involve yourself in many tasks at the same time. Your need for variety means you are better when doing several things at once, but need to avoid scattering your mental energies so that very little actually gets done.


The essence of this sign is communication. Unless other factors in your birth chart dominate, you are likely to enjoy sharing information with others, and may be very talkative. With the Moon in Gemini, may find yourself involved with lots of different people, flitting from group to group, situation to situation, in order to exchange information and ideas. Information is the foundation of your emotional wellbeing. You are likely to feel at your best when actively engaged in learning something new.


After I read this, I could hardly believe it took me almost half a decade to look into. This is so accurate in describing my personality. WOW~ 

Thankful, Grateful & Blessed! 

Letter to my Parents


To my Parents,

Thank you for pushing me to be a strong person, to know right from wrong, and to love the God. You did this by showing me who I did not want to be, or become and by choosing and sending me to the right school.

You taught me, through pain and punishment what it is to truly love, not by showing me love but by not showing me compassion, empathy or kindness.

Because of you I became the woman I am today,  I learned to be the opposite of  you, I learned to love, be grateful, and thoughtful, not really sure how I was able to learn this through all the painful lessons.

I know I chose you two people to show me the way to grow and develop the strength, and courage to work on my soul. I am grateful for you and the others who have helped shape me into who I am today. It was not easy, not fun but mostly worth it.

I will always look up to you as examples of what and who not to be.


Social Engagement Club

Should I stay or should I go

I was part of the “Social Engagement Club” at work since 2018. I enjoyed being part of it, and hated it at the same time. After a year and a half of coming up with ideas, implementing them, organizing, planning, cleaning, etc. All without any gratitude shown, only complaints. I decided it was time for me, to walk away.

Happy 2020!

I wanted to reach out and let you all know, that I have decided to withdraw from the “Social Engagement Club”.

I do have a last thought/idea,  instead of choosing people to be in the club, perhaps an email could go out, asking for 4-6 (however many) people if they would like to volunteer for 2020.

NCH is all inclusive,  I believe this would be a good time and move to get other people involved,  to express their thoughts and creativity. New people, new ideas, new energy and inclusive.

Thank you for allowing me to participate for the last year and a half.

After this went out to the members 6 not including me. I heard very little from anyone. Which only confirmed that I had made the right decision.

Letting go of “control” is something that is a challenge, so I am challenging myself to sit back and relax, I will let others “show up” if they don’t they don’t, not my problem.

Thankful, Grateful & Blessed!